Since liking someone new, like life goes, the person I look up to is supposedly possibly not themselves anymore. Also, everyone is trying to look like them who already shares traits, so maybe that's another reason they ended up that way. I am most worried they are upset for some reason I got into someone else who insulted them and then inappropriately stimulated them and got them to submit in a way that seemed to say I didn't matter, for fun in some way.