I was just trashed! like I'm stupid as a person to be liked
Who'd expect that? I mean, maybe the person I look up to did it just to fit in, like they had to turn to the bad people instead of the good ones, regarding what's going on in the Orlando, FL, area.
Also, I think Ellen DeGeneres singled out the person I look up to, saying they pretend to be bad to help others but are really good, better than me.