People think I'm punished for doing something wrong, when I didn't really do anything especially bad nor compared to others.  I also had a hard life.

This is why they keep ruining my relationship.  Supposedly, they didn't affect the person I look up to, but I'm not really sure, and I'm suffering a lot around other people, especially here in the Orlando area.  If the person I look up to is affected, they could seem very affected.  This was one of the most important things to me, and other people thought they had to take it away, tho in their subconscious they are just ruining it.

They think they can't stop always thinking about the person I look up to to inappropriately stimulate them because someone else will flare up if they don't keep in check, tho before this wasn't necessary...  They didn't heed my warning, to stop making the person out to be like I'm not good enough for them and they just became more exploited so they now and no longer I would identify with being special in certain ways.  The person I look up to can't care about my life because their life was made out to be as it is now, so that I don't feel "the love" and sympathy for my strange experiences, like it's not a big deal anymore even tho it happened.