They are listening to the world and saying it’s right to exploit the person I look up to, like it’s selfish if you have a problem.  It made the person I look up to not think my own past life was important because people made them more popular in fame.  They did it with this intention under mutual consensus with Ellen DeGeneres I saw.  I can’t see it go back and get better.  I’ve stopped caring about people.  I thought most people agreed it was wrong to make the person I look up to suddenly better than me how it is.